today been 2nd time i drink a wine.. but weird.. it didnt taste as good as it is during the 1st time.. or did i just beautify my memory again.. phew.. my past always seem better then now and the future.. i wonder when am i gonna be optimistic.. XP

anyway, i haven told you all why i drank wine right.. well, today is the celebration on my JKEES's coursemate whose birthday drops on november.. ya.. you got it.. we almost did it every month.. it's now look more like a monthly gathering more than birthday party already.. SWT

i would rather say that this birthday party is the best among the birthday we had done together.. reason?
21st century eating nice western food and a reli delicate raspberry cheese cake from the secret recipe promotion.. hehe.. ^^
still, there's something that troubles me.. i wonder what makes one of the lucky fella born in this month to be abit moody.. he's also a hsemate of mine.. really curious on what making him unhappy.. me abit "pak gua" right?? haha..

i really wanted to post up some photos.. but that have to wait because i'm not the cameraman though..

p/s: ohya.. almost forget one important thing... i screwed my MicroP paper already by today.. i wonder i ever make it through my uni life with pointer above 3... T_T

after getting into uni i reli get alot of 1st time.. 1st time spending money on baskin robbin.. 1st time go eat very very expensive western food.. 1st time eat more than 12 plate of sushi all by myself.. now this hav to pop up.. tml is my 1st time of buying so many cake at once.. 6 to b exact.. well, not exactly buy 6.. due to the promotion.. i just hav to buy 3 in order to get another 3... reli hope i can get to buy la coz i heard got alot ppl been waiting for this.. meaning i'll b expecting a big crowd in front of secret recipe.. FYI.. not all secret recipe store hav this promotion.. only limited of them.. n da nearest to me will b ALAMANDA.. so tml i'll b getting up early to go snatch my piece of cake frm the shop.. XD

跟我比较靠近的人都知道我最近在玩着一个游戏.. 开头的时候还蛮好玩的.. 但后来却变成了一种负担.. 睡觉睡的不安稳.. 拜六礼拜要出去都要三思.. 真得很累啊.. 我还能撑多久呢?

考试过了。。脾气发了。。情绪也闹了。。 但是我身边的人却没有人懂我发生什么事。。 有点好笑。。 原来我在他们眼中是一个怪人而已。。看透了咯。。 也不再期待。。
或许是我的错吧。。我本来就不是一个容易相处的人。。

funny.. when i'm trying to express my feeling.. i cant seem to find the right word in English..
but still.. english is stil easier to type..^^
about the incident above.. i sure hope those related ppl wont b seeing this.. i just nid a place to spills out my things n den i'll b just fine.. thx to those who care.. i'm ok d

now feel like talking about my exam life.. the whole day schedule will b like this:

wakeup >> study >> breakfast >> study >> lunch>> study >> dinner >> study >> sleep

i bet evy1's life is ard the same.. however, wat i'm different is that the break in between studies is always longer than the studies itself.. haha..

now i got one more week b4 my next paper.. so it's party time.. i going to watch Quantum Of Solace today.. with that stupid SAM whose birthday pass by few days ago..
HappY bElaTed BuffDaY SamUeL!!

now got to go d.. will update soon..

如果说这个世界是一个大型舞台剧，那么有些人是否一辈子都得当别人的配角？？
我几时才能当我自己的主角？
好火大。。我已经付出我的努力了。。但是却永远被其他人看轻。。这种感觉真得很不爽。。
延续之前的话题。。 其实我不想再去提的。。 本来以为写了出来心情会好一点。。但却越变越糟。。好累啊。。（心灵上的累）
想去睡却睡不着觉。。眼睛一闭上就想起不开心的事。。有没有办法可以让我不醒人事？？ 需要我的时候才对我好。。不需要的时候连理都不理我。。这样的朋友我不要。。我宁愿孤独一个人。。至少不用去烦这些事。。